Who am I?

textile, artwork, paintings

She

textile

Through my revalidation I learned to sew.
It was a pretty awesome experience and it leaded toward some works which I made in patchwork style. The sewing made it possible to slow down, slow down my thinking and also made it able to do something useful again. Wheather art is useful or not doesn't matter, the fact of sewing is.

This is my church

This is where I heal my hurts

It's in natural grace

Or watching young life shape

It's in minor keys

Solutions and remedies

Enemies becoming friends

When bitterness ends

This is my church

Faithless- God Is a Dj

photograph, textile, artwork

As archtitect lving in a house for one full year in illness. My house had become somehow my second skin, my second head and heart. To make it the place that resonated with me, I decided to make some works and hang them on the walls like I would feel in the church, with the same serenity. Quitly and gentle.

Young blood

Photography

This as a reflection to my younger self, where with birthday parties as child the child was made up in colors, especially the head with a crown. Almost looking like a native american. I brought this back to my older self as I choose not to grow up, I want my inner child to play, to have fun and to explore. To feel safe, loved and comforted, by my older self, me.

Это я. Я не ищу совершенства, идеальное несовершенно

Graphic design

As an architect and artist perfection is something you like to possess, but through the years of experience I have learned that is not about making something "perfect" it is about making something that makes "sense". When someething makes sense even if it is imperfect it is more authentic and real than if you try to reach the typical perfectionism.

"I stand With Ukraine"

photograph

As one of my best friends is Ukrainian and I have visited Ukraine a couple of times I am willing to share my support to Ukraine.
I also sended money and food by collecting it through selling sunflowers, the national flower of Ukraine.The national colors of the flag of Ukraine are blue and yellow and therefore my face is in those colors too.

Das bist du nicht

Graphic design

Who are you? David? That is not you. As I already mentioned before. Having cancer really changed my perception of myself in the way that I no longer. could or can recognize myself in the way I was. The things I lost like my hair, the elements in my blood where not me, but in matter of fact they were defenitely me. So it was never me nor ever will be, but is, defenitely me.

Чорно́биль

Photography

Don't go there, it is dangerous.
Don't go there, terrible things happened there. Don't go there, many people who have been there have lost their lives, they got ill, they got cancer. Well let's face it.

Прип'ять

Photography

A reflection of the self, the abondement, the lost one. As the boulevard of broken dreams lyrics of Green Day can perfectly play in the background. Being in a place lifeless but yet so vivid. So absolutely present. I am, present.

A childhoods dream

Photography

Unlike my childhood, who to me ended when my grandparents died at the age of 7 & 9 .
I went on drawing and doing everything in possible to treat it therapeutically.
But it never part and now especially with this cancer illness, the willingness to creates is bigger and biggger.

"Child vs. Warrior"

photography, textile

The dualism of playful child and warrior is maybe the way that best would suite how I would describe myself. As I also choose to wear this playfull selfmade pants and this official army jacket from the Ukrainian army. One of my best friends is also Ukrainian and I wear it personal in my heart.

"Childhood never ceases to exist"

photography

How old you may come or may want to be, your childhood will never cease to exist. So it won't in society. It will always be a reminder of our inner playfulness, our inner child. Our willingniss to play.

How is it possible that we are so interested in playing war, that we even make toys that makes it possible for children to play the war of their lives. Is it something we have in commmon to all that destruction belongs to the creation to balance what we are and which position we take into this big circle of life. Are we just some pawns in a greater game. Possible is or rage or anger not even that bad and helps us to survive. If we only fully surive in every sense of the world. To fully survive is as I mentioned before, to be able to be a kid again, to relax, retain and to play again. When the real war is over, war can become a game again. Without pain, and maybe all toghether with some pleasure.

Wartime becomes playtime

photography, mixed media

Dreams ( transcendence)

photograph, textile

Forever Young

photography, textile

So many adventures given up todaySo many songs we forgot to playSo many dreams swinging out of the blueOh let it come true

Forever youngI want to be forever youngDo you really want to live foreverForever, and ever?

Alphaville - Forever Young

Dreams are for everyone important, especially when you get ill because the present seems to make a stop for you.My dreams where lying in to the playfullness and the ocean. Surrounded by my stuffed animals I went to sleep every night to go on with the battle until I could find peace in the good news. Nevertheless didn't my dream change and do I still dream of swimming between killer whales and other whales.

Übermensch

photography, textile

As my beloved philosopher, I don't want to go through my life as a camel, neither do I as a lion but I prefer the life of a child, the child that sees and smells all the phenomenons for the first time. A kid where everything still is possible for. Where color exist, where softness exist, where imagination exist. That is the world I want to make part of. Not the other one anymore, the one I knew before the illness. I let it go with great joy.

Er legt die Nadel auf die Ader
Und bittet die Musik herein
Zwischen Hals und Unterarm
Die Melodie fährt leise ins Gebein

(Los! Los! Los!)

(Los! Los! Los!)

Er hat die Augen zugemacht
In seinem Blut tobt eine Schlacht
Ein Heer marschiert durch seinen Darm
Die Eingeweide werden langsam warm

(Los! Los! Los!)

(Los! Los! Los!)
(Los! Los! Los!)

(Los! Los! Los!)

Nichts ist für dich
Nichts war für dich
Nichts bleibt für dich
Für immer

Nichts ist für dich
Nichts war für dich
Nichts bleibt für dich
Für immer

Adios

Lyrics Rammstein

"Man in the Mirror"

photography, textile, mixed media

If you wanna make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself and then make the change

You gotta get it right
While you got the time
'Cause when you close your heart

You can't close your your mind
Then you close your mind!

Michael Jackson - Man in The Mirror

"Will You Be There" (Free willy)

Michael Jackson

Hold meLike the River JordanAnd I will then say to theeYou are my friendCarry meLike you are my brotherLove me like a motherWill you be there?

"Will You Be There"

painting

Michael Jackson - Will You Be There

In our darkest hour
In my deepest despair
Will you still care?
Will you be there?

In my trials
And my tribulations
Through our doubts
And frustrations

In my violence
In my turbulence
Through my fear
And my confessions

In my anguish and my pain
Through my joy and my sorrow
In the promise of another tomorrow
I'll never let you part
For you're always in my heart

photography

Будь мені кимось

Один в каное · Будь Мені Кимось

Будь мені кимось, будь мені як
Тільки не звуть тебе: якір, маяк
І якшо суть слова донесуть
Я стану м'якшою
Стань мені кимось, стань
Як хтось, кого майже достатньо
Щоб спокійно дожити до ста
Я - не атомна станція
Я - квартира напівпуста:
Люстра - Франція
І я під нею проста
Бличкуча, але не глянцева
Без пози, без статі
Чекаю тебе на паркетному старті
Вдома, вдома, вдома.

Один в каное - Будь мені кимось

Be someone to me, be like me
Just don't be called an anchor, a lighthouse
And if the words are true
I'll be softer
Be somebody to me, be somebody
Like someone who's almost enough
To live to be a hundred
I'm not a nuclear power plant
I'm an apartment half empty:
The chandelier is France
And I'm simple underneath
Shiny, but not glossy
No pose, no sex
Waiting for you at the parquet start
At home, at home, at home.

What you need to know about Rebirth

gesamtkunstwerk und eigentlichkeit

What you need to know about Rebirth

What you need to know is that everything you see is real and isn't faked. The hair is real, the blood is real tapped off. The pants are really sewed out of fab, the Ukrainian uniform is real, the stuffed animals I slept with during my illness in hospital are real. There is no space for fake here, as I am trying to tell you my real story about who I really am. I build this website for people who was undergone the same or others to learn about "transformation" and "making sense" of life. I don't bother about followers or likes. I am in need of reality, I am in need of connection and I am sure that I am not the only one. That is why I share with you my honest story, with real materials. I hope you enjoyed it.

Глибше від образ, більше ніж потяг Будь мені зараз, а не потім, потім

Я така

mixed media

What you see? Death sunflowers, a death bumble bee, a part of a Russian tank that has been destroyed, a model of Maria and Jesus.
But what do you feel?
Death and destruction.
It's part of life, what goes up must go down,

that's at least the way we know it.
I learned death when I was seven.
When my grandfather left my left hand,

no walks around the water anymore.
There became an emptiness.
This emptiness became only bigger when my grandmother joined him.
Turned to ashes, they left my life.
At the age of 31 I got cancer, I have seen death
I received the same chemotherapy as my grandfather, but I said no.
I live.
I will be born again, I will be the
sunflower seed.
This is my rebirth.

Будь мені кимось, будь

Тим, кого так швидко не заберуть

Глибше від образ, більше ніж потяг

Будь мені зараз, а не потім, потім