Who am I?
Me
textile, artwork, paintings
She
textile
Through my revalidation I learned to sew.
It was a pretty awesome experience and it leaded toward some works which I made in patchwork style. The sewing made it possible to slow down, slow down my thinking and also made it able to do something useful again. Wheather art is useful or not doesn't matter, the fact of sewing is.
This is my church
This is where I heal my hurts
It's in natural grace
Or watching young life shape
It's in minor keys
Solutions and remedies
Enemies becoming friends
When bitterness ends
This is my church
This is my church
This is my church
Faithless- God Is a Dj
As archtitect lving in a house for one full year in illness. My house had become somehow my second skin, my second head and heart. To make it the place that resonated with me, I decided to make some works and hang them on the walls like I would feel in the church, with the same serenity. Quitly and gentle.
Young blood
Photography
This as a reflection to my younger self, where with birthday parties as child the child was made up in colors, especially the head with a crown. Almost looking like a native american. I brought this back to my older self as I choose not to grow up, I want my inner child to play, to have fun and to explore. To feel safe, loved and comforted, by my older self, me.
Это я. Я не ищу совершенства, идеальное несовершенно
Graphic design
As an architect and artist perfection is something you like to possess, but through the years of experience I have learned that is not about making something "perfect". It is about making something that makes "sense". When something makes sense even if it is imperfect, it is more authentic and real than if you try to reach the typical perfectionism.
"I stand With Ukraine"
photograph
Das bist du nicht
Graphic design
Who are you? David? That is not you. As I already mentioned before. Having cancer really changed my perception of myself in the way that I no longer could or can recognise myself in the way I was. The things I lost like my hair, the elements in my blood where not mine, but in matter of fact they were definitely me. So it was never me nor ever will be, but is, definitely me.
Прип'ять
Photography
Don't go there, it is dangerous.
Don't go there, terrible things happened there. Don't go there, many people who have been there have lost their lives, they got ill, they got cancer. Well let's face it.
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Чорно́биль
Photography
A childhoods dream
Photography
Unlike my childhood, who to me ended when my grandparents died at the age of 7 & 9 .
I went on drawing and doing everything in possible to treat it therapeutically.
But it never part and now especially with this cancer illness, the willingness to creates is bigger and biggger.
A reflection of the self, the abondement, the lost one. As the boulevard of broken dreams lyrics of Green Day can perfectly play in the background. Being in a place lifeless, but yet so vivid. So absolutely present. I am, present.
"Child vs. Warrior"
photography, textile
The dualism of playful child and warrior is maybe the way that best would suite how I would describe myself. As I also choose to wear this playfull selfmade pants and this official army jacket from the Ukrainian army. One of my best friends is also Ukrainian and I wear it personal in my heart.
"Childhood never ceases to exist"
photography
How old you may come or may want to be, your childhood will never cease to exist. So it won't in society. It will always be a reminder of our inner playfulness, our inner child. Our willingniss to play.
How is it possible that we are so interested in playing war, that we even make toys that makes it possible for children to play the war of their lives. Is it something we have in commmon to all that destruction belongs to the creation to balance what we are and which position we take into this big circle of life. Are we just some pawns in a greater game. Possible is or rage or anger not even that bad and helps us to survive. If we only fully surive in every sense of the world. To fully survive is as I mentioned before, to be able to be a kid again, to relax, retain and to play again. When the real war is over, war can become a game again. Without pain, and maybe all toghether with some pleasure.
Wartime becomes playtime
photography, mixed media
Dreams ( transcendence)
photograph, textile
So many adventures given up todaySo many songs we forgot to playSo many dreams swinging out of the blueOh let it come true
Forever youngI want to be forever youngDo you really want to live foreverForever, and ever?
Alphaville - Forever Young
Er legt die Nadel auf die Ader
Und bittet die Musik herein
Zwischen Hals und Unterarm
Die Melodie fährt leise ins Gebein
(Los! Los! Los!)
(Los! Los! Los!)
Er hat die Augen zugemacht
In seinem Blut tobt eine Schlacht
Ein Heer marschiert durch seinen Darm
Die Eingeweide werden langsam warm
(Los! Los! Los!)
(Los! Los! Los!)
(Los! Los! Los!)
(Los! Los! Los!)
Nichts ist für dich
Nichts war für dich
Nichts bleibt für dich
Für immer
Nichts ist für dich
Nichts war für dich
Nichts bleibt für dich
Für immer
Adios
Lyrics Rammstein
Dreams are for everyone important, especially when you get ill because the present seems to make a stop for you.My dreams where lying in to the playfullness and the ocean. Surrounded by my stuffed animals I went to sleep every night to go on with the battle until I could find peace in the good news. Nevertheless didn't my dream change and do I still dream of swimming between killer whales and other whales.
Übermensch
photography, textile
As my beloved philosopher, I don't want to go through my life as a camel, neither do I as a lion but I prefer the life of a child, the child that sees and smells all the phenomenons for the first time. A kid where everything still is possible for. Where color exist, where softness exist, where imagination exist. That is the world I want to make part of. Not the other one anymore, the one I knew before the illness. I let it go with great joy.
"Man in the Mirror"
photography, textile, mixed media
If you wanna make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself and then make the change
You gotta get it right
While you got the time
'Cause when you close your heart
You can't close your your mind
Then you close your mind!
Michael Jackson - Man in The Mirror
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Michael Jackson - Will You Be There
In our darkest hour
In my deepest despair
Will you still care?
Will you be there?
In my trials
And my tribulations
Through our doubts
And frustrations
In my violence
In my turbulence
Through my fear
And my confessions
In my anguish and my pain
Through my joy and my sorrow
In the promise of another tomorrow
I'll never let you part
For you're always in my heart
Будь мені кимось
photography
Be someone to me, be like me
Just don't be called an anchor, a lighthouse
And if the words are true
I'll be softer
Be somebody to me, be somebody
Like someone who's almost enough
To live to be a hundred
I'm not a nuclear power plant
I'm an apartment half empty:
The chandelier is France
And I'm simple underneath
Shiny, but not glossy
No pose, no sex
Waiting for you at the parquet start
At home, at home, at home.
Будь мені кимось, будь мені як
Тільки не звуть тебе: якір, маяк
І якшо суть слова донесуть
Я стану м'якшою
Стань мені кимось, стань
Як хтось, кого майже достатньо
Щоб спокійно дожити до ста
Я - не атомна станція
Я - квартира напівпуста:
Люстра - Франція
І я під нею проста
Бличкуча, але не глянцева
Без пози, без статі
Чекаю тебе на паркетному старті
Вдома, вдома, вдома.
Один в каное - Будь мені кимось
What you need to know about Rebirth
What you need to know is that everything you see is real and isn't faked. The hair is real, the blood is real tapped off. The pants are really sewed out of fab, the Ukrainian uniform is real, the stuffed animals I slept with during my illness in hospital are real. There is no space for fake here, as I am trying to tell you my real story about who I really am. I build this website for people who was undergone the same or others to learn about "transformation" and "making sense" of life. I don't bother about followers or likes. I am in need of reality, I am in need of connection and I am sure that I am not the only one. That is why I share with you my honest story, with real materials. I hope you enjoyed it.
What you need to know about Rebirth
gesamtkunstwerk und eigentlichkeit
Я така
mixed media
What you see? Death sunflowers, a death bumble bee, a part of a Russian tank that has been destroyed, a model of Maria and Jesus.
But what do you feel?
Death and destruction.
It's part of life, what goes up must go down,
that's at least the way we know it.
I learned death when I was seven.
When my grandfather left my left hand,
no walks around the water anymore.
There became an emptiness.
This emptiness became only bigger when my grandmother joined him.
Turned to ashes, they left my life.
At the age of 31 I got cancer, I have seen death
I received the same chemotherapy as my grandfather, but I said no.
I live.
I will be born again, I will be the
sunflower seed.
This is my rebirth.
Будь мені кимось, будь
Тим, кого так швидко не заберуть
Глибше від образ, більше ніж потяг
Будь мені зараз, а не потім, потім
Стань мені на шляху, стань
Підійми бунт, зірви повстання
Під гаслами «Ти остання!»
«Ти точно остання!»
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